All this Confession.
Yeahh . all that beauty is breath taking right ?… lets be real . people see me and say im one of the most beautiful people they know. Yet when i see myself this is what i see. Main reasoning being. in 6th grade, i was weak. i spent 3 years of my life starting then as a cutter. yeah. im seen as a pretty happy girl always laughing and smiling but behind my mask im still asking myself what happened to me. I dropped most of the people i knew from grade school not because we fell apart. but because half of the people who said they loved me there. knew i was doing it. yet.instead of being there for me. i got picked on. yes i see now i was a little niave to do it. but hey when no body is there for you besides a girl who already had problems you tear yourself apart. i made myself miserable to keep from making others miserable. i kept this from my family my whole life. i keep everybody out, and this happened to me. but yet after all the stupidity the world showed me. I am a better person. yes when people find out they go straight to “your emo” or “wtf is wrong with you” or “wow i expected better from you” or the over used “i thought you were stronger then that”. honestly i found my real true friends from all the bullshit i went through. it taught me i cant trust everyone. i express myself quite well now. and ive come to grips with the fact that i have pretty messed up life. but ive stopped. and now to all the people who broke me down enough to let it get to me that bad. i wont treat you with hate. just know when im successful i will thank you. because im stronger alot wiser and you gave me strength to prove to all of you that i truly am worth something. and i will be something, despit everything that was said. <3
think twice about what you say. Your words really do hurt people. keep your judgements to yourself.